quest for life

My future

I’m in the process of making some major life changes. At the moment I’m stuck at a crossroad, the only thing I know is :i need to return to college for a master’s degree. Herein lies my dilemma….I’ve been substituting at various school districts throughout darke county. I do enjoy it….I don’t love it likeContinue reading “My future”

Writing & Panic attacks

I am trying to figure out why I feel a tightening in my stomach every time I sit down to write. Or I will draw complete blanks. I will completely forget the scene I was about to write. I can’t come up with another scene….I haven’t been able to clearly formulate a scene for days.Continue reading “Writing & Panic attacks”

A new perspective

Today, I am going to have a new attitude about how my life is going. I noticed that lately I’ve been pretty negative–this is just not me. I am usually very optimistic. I decided that even if I am in a sour mood and I want to say “fuck it all–who cares” I will not.Continue reading “A new perspective”

lost

I feel like I am just wandering through life lately without any real purpose. I get up go to work come home, eat get kids to bed, watch tv a bit, go to bed. Same ole, same ole. Its funny because I love routine but lately I really hate it–almost despise it. Maybe its becauseContinue reading “lost”

Overwhelmed!

I am extremely relieved that the semester is finally over. Yea! But on the down side of that is now I have to really focus on my writing. For some reason this scared the shit out of me. I think it’s because now….I’m not just pretending to be a writer, I am a writer. AsContinue reading “Overwhelmed!”

Money issues

It is a beautiful day outside, but I have been stuck inside all day, doing housework and homework. I’m trying to figure out how to solve my financial dilemma. I can do workstudy this summer but that is a bit of a double edged sword. If I do work this summer then I have toContinue reading “Money issues”

fakers

I am really sick of people who act one way then do another. I could me upset because this person said she didn’t want to do something but when Too Tall asked her she jumped on it even fighting to get it. I don’t think that’s right. I mean really. If you don’t care thenContinue reading “fakers”

The Shoe that drops

This is an exercise from on of my writing books……The Lie That Tells the Truth by John Dufresne. I am going to do these exercises for my characters of my novel. “What do you think is missing in your life?” shouts the evangelist from the small box-shaped television sitting atop of the counter behind theContinue reading “The Shoe that drops”